People wonder why people cut themselves and think about or actually do kill themselves. I know why. Sometimes its better to think about being dead than to have to worry about being pulled into hundreds of directions when most or none are what YOU actually want to do. Sometimes its better to think about being dead then to hear about how much a disappointment you are to people. Sometimes its better to be dead then to hear about how you shouldn’t do anything because its not what they want you to be doing. Sometimes its better to be dead then to have the one light in your world thrown in your face as its something bad when its the only thing that gives you the will to even want to live or face another day. That sometimes I feel is now coming sooner and sooner and closer and closer. Hopefully its quick and painless.
Really need my heart right now but they are gone … trying hard not to go to someone else and mess everything up
Dropping everything for one more chance …. just wish I could know again all the reasons why you want this
Tonight is the last night many people will ever hear from me again … I said my good byes and im ready for what will come next … I have found my peace and that’s all I needed.
Im so tired of having any feelings at all in my body … tired of everyone looking to me for shit I cant give them … tired if doing stuff for people who turn around and act like it wasn’t enough … tired of it all
Is it really so wrong to love more than one person???